Why I Chose Him?

People usually ask me why? Honestly, I couldn’t figure out the answers until I started writing this post and it was something I kept on asking myself for the past months, until I slowly realize these reasons..

I chose him because he makes me laugh,
even when I don’t feel like laughing, even when I don’t think I can,
even when I feel like crying,
even when I had a very rough day.
By just being in it, he makes my toughest days lighter and my darkest nights brighter.

I chose him because he loves me,
even when I feel like I’m not lovable,
even when I’m being my annoying self,
even when I have anxiety and being moody, he still loves me.

I chose him because he tells me I’m crazy, but still loves me.
I chose him because I can be my weirdest self when I’m with him.
Together, we can be our true selves spending whole day just watching netflix, playing board games and goofing around but still enjoys every minute of it.
I chose him because in his arms I find peace, I feel secure. His hugs and kisses take my anxiety, fears and worry away.

He’s not perfect, to be honest, he’s far from it. I have never imagined that I would fall in love with him.
He’s one of the most stubborn person I know,
he doesn’t listen, defensive and doesn’t take blame most of the time.
There are days when he can be extremely close-minded, impatient, moody, lazy, and annoying.
There are days when I don’t feel like he pays attention to what I’m saying and pays more attention to this phone and other things than to what I am saying and sometimes I feel like he doesn’t care on how I feel at all, there are days that his OC-ness with everything drives me crazy, he can be a total pain in my ass and sometimes, I feel like being with him can be really stressful and exhausting.
But as days, weeks and months went by, I learned to love the little and big things I hate the most about him.

Acceptance is the key when you can’t change something.

I believe none of us is perfect, but I know we can all change for the person we love. We can try to be a better person for them. We’re all entitled to change for the better.

Even when there are days where I want to strangle him, cry out loud, and give up, at the end of the day, he’s still perfect for me.
Because us, being together makes everything seem perfect. I find peace and true happiness by just us, being together, worrying about nothing.

I chose him because I wouldn’t want to experience life changing things without him.
I chose him because he’s him and I love him.

I chose him, and I will continue choosing him. today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow for every good and tough days for the rest of our lives.

We do not really know what the future holds. But I do know some things, beyond a shadow of a doubt. I know you, I know how I feel about you and I know how I feel about us.

I know you, and despite all these noise and chaos, I know there are things you may need that only I can give you, there are things that only I can do to make you feel better.

So here are my promises to you..

There will be days when you will find yourself drowning in some situations that you won’t feel like talking about,
There will be days when you question yourself and wonder why things are happening that way.
I promise to stay by your side and carry the baggage with you until you are ready to share it.

You will look at yourself and be furious,
I promise to let you look into my mirror so you can see what I truly see in you.

Surely, there will be days when you feel like you’re pissed at me,
I promise to stay calm despite all the harsh things you say to me, whether your words are hurting me or not, I promise to stay beside you and listen to what you are saying.

There will be days when you look up and realize that you are lost, sad and depressed.
There will be days when you will feel weak,
I promise to stay strong for you. I will never get tired of trying to make you smile.
Remember what I always tell you, I would always stand still for you, by your side, everyday.
I will never move so you’ll find me, waiting beside you. I’m gonna keep holding onto you.

There will be days when you’ll feel like you want to come to me for forgiveness. You might want it right away, but we both know it’ll takes time as long as you ask for it sincerely.
Keep in mind that I will always give it to you because I love you so much and your happiness is my top priority.

There will be days when you’ll be late and feel sorry for making me wait. But watch because I already stopped time for us.

Happy Anniversary to us, Love.

I love you with all my heart and all the bones in my body.
I promise to let you go if that’s what you want, if that’s what will make you truly happy and I promise to stay by your side when you need me, I promise to hold you in my heart forever.

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